Are you ever just overwhelmed by the horrifying thought that maybe, nobody ACTUALLY wants you around? And it’s not that you think everyone hates you, but it’s just that you’re not special to anyone? And that its really kind of sucky that you’re about 98% sure that nobody thinks “Wow, I just really like talking to her.” and that you could probably just disappear without anyone caring that much?
yes…. but then again, same could be said of most people. even ‘celebrities’ aren’t as loved or respected in a good/healthy way. and the people who work the hardest for peace and progress go unnoticed.
i’m just trying to add some more insight, not take anything away from the op.
so the best you can do is just try to be a good person and not even worry about what other people think. you could adopt animals or children, for example, and you will mean the world to them, and that’s all that matters because other people are psychologically unhealthy and don’t know how to respect good things.