i have no idea what i'm doing. ~namaste~
Posts tagged depression
You know, I really hate those “here’s how to be happy!” posts that include things like “Don’t let negativity overtake you! Always be positive!”
Because sometimes, that’s really not fucking possible. Especially when you’re TRYING to derail the negative with positive things and it’s like trying to stop a runaway train going downhill..
I agree. Sometimes you just have to let it hurt:
Another thing I see is ‘one day this pain will make sense to you’ and ‘whatever doesn’t kill me makes me stronger.’ I don’t necessarily agree with that either.
And lastly I see ‘it always gets better’ well I don’t know about that for certain either. But I believe there is almost always something to be hopeful for. At least at this moment in time. We have come very far. If we can hold it together, the earth won’t dry out of water for another few million years (or was it billion?). Anyway we have a long time to maybe somehow save the universe or travel to a parallel one. heh. Or maybe before that we will realize the universe ending will be a good thing…something the Buddhists sort of preach…We all started as one and we will end as one.
I always laugh internally when someone tells me I’m “so mature” and “reserved” for my age.
I am not any more mature than anyone else in their late 20s.
I’m never excited about anything. I rarely look forward to anything. I have no role models, no heroes, and I don’t look up to anyone. My lack of enthusiasm isn’t a sign of maturity.
I get so overwhelmed by negative qualities and bad choices of other people that I get turned off to almost everyone instantly (no worries, I am well aware that I am not perfect, that being said, I don’t have to be everyones friend. Obviously.)
I don’t know if it has to due with all the anger issues I dealt with for the past 7 or 8 years but I feel like I’ve become very cynical, especially towards things that other people find sacred, like religion, values, traditions, and so on. It can be very hurtful to other people when I express my lack of trust or conviction in those things and can come across as disrespectful, which is bad because I never want to hurt anyone.
I wonder if I’m doomed to be underwhelmed and unimpressed by everything forever. I wasn’t always like that. Will I always be annoyed, bored, and tired with everything that comes my way from now on?
I sure hope not.
who uses humor to distract themselves from life’s problems?
i do and i’m surrounded by these walls of laughter i can’t break free from. humor is truly the worst thing a person can experience.