there is no theme here. this is just a summary of what i see/think about. (which is a little bit of everything under the sun) important posts you HAVE to see are tagged "important". sometimes this blog is pretty weird/gross. ~namaste~
Posts tagged depression
When I give advice to people I try to no longer make any promises; I just try and say things like “this may work” or “this is just a suggestion” and I’m glad people try to help me but sometimes it feels they are too sure of themselves… and moreover what does it even matter anyway if I’m sad. It’s within me not you. I love using Abraham Lincoln as a reference (he had depression) because people loved him more for his feelings. Look at where we are now. It feels like feeling bad is a weakness and it’s disgusting.
That moment when you’re on the way to work thinking about killing yourself and staying alive comes on the radio
I reckoned that psychologists/psychiatrists would have to be exposed to philosophy in their education because mental health has a lot to do with ones outlook on life, but all the specialists I’ve had to deal with have been completely ignorant of existential nihilism. It’s unfortunate as it makes me seem like I have a psychologically/medically curable problem. Like, my nihilistic beliefs can be changed with Prozac. In reality, however, I’m not the one with the problem. The world at large is problematic. Having to live under absurd conditions is the fucking issue. The difference is that I say “everything IS meaningless” and the world hears “everything SEEMS meaningless”. No, “seemingness” is not firm! It is. I’m giving a direct fact; stating, not describing. Despite being aware of this futility on a daily basis, I function and operate in accordance to the arbitrary “normative”. I just think in contrast from the masses. Most people base their livelihood on feelings, I don’t because I’m mostly apathetic. My attitude on life does not interfere with everyday living, it simply lingers in mind throughout the day, but leaves me to execute my existence with ease. This all sounds bleak but lets not negate this. I was sad but now I’m fine. No one seems to get that. You don’t need emotions to continue living; you just have to fulfill your primitive needs, and perhaps perform a few dull tasks just so you’re not an inconvenience and no one bothers you. Thats all that constitutes the essence of being! Acting subjectively ruins everything, anyways.
thank you for this post. This is pretty much how I feel right now. I like to pretend life is a game to make it more bearable.