i have no idea what i'm doing. ~namaste~
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When I give advice to people I try to no longer make any promises; I just try and say things like “this may work” or “this is just a suggestion” and I’m glad people try to help me but sometimes it feels they are too sure of themselves… and moreover what does it even matter anyway if I’m sad. It’s within me not you. I love using Abraham Lincoln as a reference (he had depression) because people loved him more for his feelings. Look at where we are now. It feels like feeling bad is a weakness and it’s disgusting.
No one should feel bad about not experiencing things. For most of history humans have lived like animals, barely surviving. Many sports were invented around the 1800s and other things people do nowadays have been around less longer than that. So no one should feel bad about not doing certain things. If you’re a nice person, that’s a hundred times better than being amazing at sports. Sometimes I berate myself for not doing more in my teens, but I realize I lived a pretty good life even without doing too much. Also, I’ve heard of people trying new sports, going back to college, and partying in their 40s+.
Do you ever, all of a sudden, get this overwhelming wave of self hatred? Like suddenly you hate your body, every inch, your face, your voice, your smile, your laugh, your personality.. you just want to disappear because you can’t stand to be yourself.
wow this post basically sums up my life
many times everyday. so i try to tell myself that ~life is good, humans are good, and i am good~. i try to remind myself of the good things humans have done and are capable of and the few good things i have done. why can’t my brain remember happy moments more than embarrassing moments?
i feel kinda bad but i used to enjoy children a lot more until i got a job working with them. i still try and be a good caretaker and i definitely still think they are innocent and only deserve the best care (authoritative parenting style and all that) but i am wiped out from them. i guess getting a career in a field you enjoy is sometimes a bad idea because then the thing you enjoy becomes something you have to do to survive and it becomes warped and distorted from working on it and not just letting it be a hobby.
don’t be in a hurry to experience things. sleep as much as you can. because lately i feel like i’ve learned and experienced so much that nothing is surprising or interesting. i’m 23. what am i going to do for the rest of life. i don’t see myself wanting to live past, like, 50.
well this isn’t completely true. i forgot i made a list of things i want to try: ouija board, zip lining, going to a psychic, treasure hunt, drugs (only very soft ones if they were legal), more theme parks, gymnastics, communicating with animals, raising a child (lol), love (because no one has ever really loved me)’:
lately i don’t even enjoy movies or most music….