the doctor discovered i have ‘central sleep apnea’ which means my brain ‘forgets’ to breathe and i wake up many times throughout the night. it’s also unusual because there isn’t a cause of mine like with other people. i just have it, if that makes sense. this really bothers me because sleep is so important and i haven’t had any quality sleep in years.
i also simply bent over today, and immediately felt like i pulled a muscle in my back or something. i’m blaming work for this. i work at a daycare and have to pick up the toddlers a lot. whenever i escape that -spawn of satan- i just hope i remember to be thankful i was able to escape it and then go back and help others who work hard and don’t earn enough.
i just really hate myself more and more though. i hate my body right now!