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i have no idea what i'm doing. ~namaste~

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Apr 11
  • Me, to my cat: wtf jinx!? ..asshole…

Apr 9

Every time I have an argument with this one person it ends up basically going like this

  • Him: that is untrue
  • Me: no, it's valid
  • Him: I didn't say it wasn't valid, I said it was untrue!

Mar 4

It wouldn’t be fair if I was attractive, intelligent, hilarious, and had no psychiatric problems.


Feb 18

Everyone is my teacher. Some I seek. Some I subconsciously attract. Often I learn simply by observing others. Some may be completely unaware that I’m learning from them, yet I bow deeply in gratitude.

—Eric Allen

(via chaosaurus)

(via e-th-e-r-e-a-l)


Feb 17

I am a Person that believes Blocking, Ignoring, or otherwise Silencing people that disagree with me is a legitimate response to Opposition Viewpoints.

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Out of all the sites I use I have 2 people on ignore and I’ll probably eventually undo it soon. Call me crazy, I think truly being intelligent and kind “open minded” is not ignoring people and ideas for literally forever.
Maybe I’ve been blessed for not knowing anyone who’s a real asshole. I don’t think that’s it though.


Feb 16

themisadventuresofmaddy:

do you ever feel like you’re just sort of 

there

like all your friends go out and do things and have fun and do stupid things with their best friends and instead of doing all that you’re just sort of this mildly entertaining thing that people take an interest in once in a while but they wouldn’t really care if it was gone

like you just sort of exist but you don’t really mean anything

(via knowledgespeaks--wisdomlistens)


Feb 15

I had a crazy time trying to fall asleep last night

It’s hard to describe dreams because it always makes you look crazy but I’m just going to try and describe the whole event here anyway. 

The back story is that I missed a dose of my ssri yesterday and was going to sleep very tired. 

So I laid down and started having brain zaps every few minutes. I’ve had them before but last night they seemed to be the strongest I’ve ever felt. I wasn’t really scared or anything just a little annoyed that I couldn’t sleep. Every few minutes I just had a huge zap and I also could see like a speaker or something aluminum at the same time. 

So this happened maybe a dozen times and I was really tired so I just sort of rolled over and changed positions to try and go to sleep. I was considering going to take my medicine but like I said, I was really tired. So this is where I started dreaming. But it was strange because I immediately began dreaming and sort of knew it was a dream in this stage. I’m not sure how to describe this. I knew I was dreaming but I couldn’t control my actions still. So it wasn’t quite a lucid dream I suppose.

So anyway what happened was was that I started hearing voices. They were mostly southern accents. This whole time I felt like I was either in a hospital bed, on a stretcher at my dead great grandmother’s house (she died about 10 years ago but in the dream the house was like it was back then even though it’s been renovated since), or in my room. Anyway, I didn’t really see anyone but these voices I heard were talking about trying to fix me. Like, they were trying to fix my brain zaps. And sometimes I felt as if they were standing around me discussing me or sometimes I felt as if they shrunk and were inside me trying to fix me. Again, I sort of knew I was dreaming at this point but not quite. And I didn’t feel in control over myself much. Until I did this one thing which was I just started yelling (in my dream) ‘shut up! everyone shut up and let me sleep!’ So anyway, they said something about needing me to go deeper.

No shit. I think I experienced a real life episode of inception at this point. 

So the voices said that and a little while later I somehow felt dragged into another dream. Like I literally felt I was going through a hole into another dream. 

So in this dream it was just a series of random musical scenes. Again, I wasn’t controlling much of myself at all but I could still sort of tell I was just dreaming. I don’t even remember most of this whole dream other than it was just a series of Broadway musicals type of thing. What I mean is that, I and everyone around me were singing and dancing just in random places about random things. I remember this one part where I felt like I could control myself for a short time and that was when I was on a stage and started to tap dance. What was going through my head was ‘well maybe if I just tap dance and give the people what they want they will let me get to sleep’. 

no shit.

At the end of this dream I was sort of floating through a hallway and there were people on either side smiling and clapping for me. 

Then I woke up at this point. But I was very tired so I wasn’t 100% ‘there’. I was debating what to do. I got up and started going downstairs because I wanted to write this whole experience down but I went back and just typed it on my phone. Then I went back to sleep for good.

I hope this post is coherent lol. It is probably nothing but a cool thing to write down I guess.


Feb 12

My ear is still popping and it’s been 2 weeks since I first got the ear infection. I didn’t know this was possible. 

http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/interactive/discussion/My-Ears-have-been-popping-constantly-for-a-year-t51791-f43.html

I’m a 25-year old male and my ears have been popping constantly for what seems like a year. 

 


Feb 9
Something my parents/mom did right was not be sexist. I keep hearing these awful childhood stories people have and, okay well my mom did do a few things to promote bad stereotypes but for the most part she was pretty strong willed and didn’t do anything with my brother and me like let my brother talk over me necessarily. It just happened to be that I was born shy and he was born extrovert. It wasn’t a sexist thing in our house though. And we were really conservative but she still gave me a sex talk but I think she let it slip a little and I only got one pretty much but it’s better than most. She also said how people should be married first. Not just the woman but the man. So then I grew up in a culture that promoted a lot of perversion and sex and I think that skewed my views a little bit. But it wasn’t my parents doing for that. And anyway, for the most part there wasn’t any shaming about my period or anything which was nice. And she has always pretty much held the same standards for males and females regarding sex and things. And my parents are still married and tbh it’s almost as if my mom has more control than my dad. But she has an important job and works very hard. And my dad is just really laid back.
My problem with them is that they are so into each other, lol, actually, and sometimes they just side with each other instead of considering me/my feelings and also half the things I ask that they do for me aren’t for me, like buying me things or paying for anything I want…what I often ask for is that they help the world by recycling more and stuff. oh well.
It was a pretty good family and childhood. I think my family has a good sense of humor. My brother can be almost a pain in the ass with his humor but he does it about everyone. He will just make fun of everyone and himself sometimes too, so you just have to get to know him before you think he’s trying to pick at you or make your life hell- he just likes to joke maybe a little too much. 
One of the funniest memories I have is when my mom was in the store after a long day at work/school and left my brother and I in the car arguing. I was also raining hard. And she came back out and was really mad at us and kept trying to get her seat belt on but it kept pulling then she tried to drive away and went up on the curb. lol.
She also used to fix my hair every morning when I was 3/4 and I had to have it as tight as possible for some reason. 
My dad is just really easy going mostly and well, sometimes I don’t think he gave the best speeches or life lessons but when I was a teen he would just end up saying ‘you need to read ‘how to win friends and influence people”. lol.
I could probably list hundreds of clever things my brother has said but I will share just one I suppose. Well, one time a few summers ago my dad bought this little wooden face to hang on a tree in the backyard as decoration and my brother said ‘what is that? I thought it was a pair of balls or something’
I got a good sense of humor but many of the things I say are actually just repeats of jokes I’ve heard elsewhere :< whereas my brother is more original. 
so.
I would like to maybe adopt a child one day and give them a good childhood because I realize how lucky I was, mostly.

Something my parents/mom did right was not be sexist. I keep hearing these awful childhood stories people have and, okay well my mom did do a few things to promote bad stereotypes but for the most part she was pretty strong willed and didn’t do anything with my brother and me like let my brother talk over me necessarily. It just happened to be that I was born shy and he was born extrovert. It wasn’t a sexist thing in our house though. And we were really conservative but she still gave me a sex talk but I think she let it slip a little and I only got one pretty much but it’s better than most. She also said how people should be married first. Not just the woman but the man. So then I grew up in a culture that promoted a lot of perversion and sex and I think that skewed my views a little bit. But it wasn’t my parents doing for that. And anyway, for the most part there wasn’t any shaming about my period or anything which was nice. And she has always pretty much held the same standards for males and females regarding sex and things. And my parents are still married and tbh it’s almost as if my mom has more control than my dad. But she has an important job and works very hard. And my dad is just really laid back.

My problem with them is that they are so into each other, lol, actually, and sometimes they just side with each other instead of considering me/my feelings and also half the things I ask that they do for me aren’t for me, like buying me things or paying for anything I want…what I often ask for is that they help the world by recycling more and stuff. oh well.

It was a pretty good family and childhood. I think my family has a good sense of humor. My brother can be almost a pain in the ass with his humor but he does it about everyone. He will just make fun of everyone and himself sometimes too, so you just have to get to know him before you think he’s trying to pick at you or make your life hell- he just likes to joke maybe a little too much. 

One of the funniest memories I have is when my mom was in the store after a long day at work/school and left my brother and I in the car arguing. I was also raining hard. And she came back out and was really mad at us and kept trying to get her seat belt on but it kept pulling then she tried to drive away and went up on the curb. lol.

She also used to fix my hair every morning when I was 3/4 and I had to have it as tight as possible for some reason. 

My dad is just really easy going mostly and well, sometimes I don’t think he gave the best speeches or life lessons but when I was a teen he would just end up saying ‘you need to read ‘how to win friends and influence people”. lol.

I could probably list hundreds of clever things my brother has said but I will share just one I suppose. Well, one time a few summers ago my dad bought this little wooden face to hang on a tree in the backyard as decoration and my brother said ‘what is that? I thought it was a pair of balls or something’

I got a good sense of humor but many of the things I say are actually just repeats of jokes I’ve heard elsewhere :< whereas my brother is more original. 

so.

I would like to maybe adopt a child one day and give them a good childhood because I realize how lucky I was, mostly.



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