It wouldn’t be fair if I was attractive, intelligent, hilarious, and had no psychiatric problems.
i have no idea what i'm doing. ~namaste~
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Everyone is my teacher. Some I seek. Some I subconsciously attract. Often I learn simply by observing others. Some may be completely unaware that I’m learning from them, yet I bow deeply in gratitude.
—Eric Allen (via chaosaurus)
I am a Person that believes Blocking, Ignoring, or otherwise Silencing people that disagree with me is a legitimate response to Opposition Viewpoints.
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Out of all the sites I use I have 2 people on ignore and I’ll probably eventually undo it soon. Call me crazy, I think truly being intelligent and kind “open minded” is not ignoring people and ideas for literally forever.
Maybe I’ve been blessed for not knowing anyone who’s a real asshole. I don’t think that’s it though.
do you ever feel like you’re just sort of
like all your friends go out and do things and have fun and do stupid things with their best friends and instead of doing all that you’re just sort of this mildly entertaining thing that people take an interest in once in a while but they wouldn’t really care if it was gone
like you just sort of exist but you don’t really mean anything
I had a crazy time trying to fall asleep last night
It’s hard to describe dreams because it always makes you look crazy but I’m just going to try and describe the whole event here anyway.
The back story is that I missed a dose of my ssri yesterday and was going to sleep very tired.
So I laid down and started having brain zaps every few minutes. I’ve had them before but last night they seemed to be the strongest I’ve ever felt. I wasn’t really scared or anything just a little annoyed that I couldn’t sleep. Every few minutes I just had a huge zap and I also could see like a speaker or something aluminum at the same time.
So this happened maybe a dozen times and I was really tired so I just sort of rolled over and changed positions to try and go to sleep. I was considering going to take my medicine but like I said, I was really tired. So this is where I started dreaming. But it was strange because I immediately began dreaming and sort of knew it was a dream in this stage. I’m not sure how to describe this. I knew I was dreaming but I couldn’t control my actions still. So it wasn’t quite a lucid dream I suppose.
So anyway what happened was was that I started hearing voices. They were mostly southern accents. This whole time I felt like I was either in a hospital bed, on a stretcher at my dead great grandmother’s house (she died about 10 years ago but in the dream the house was like it was back then even though it’s been renovated since), or in my room. Anyway, I didn’t really see anyone but these voices I heard were talking about trying to fix me. Like, they were trying to fix my brain zaps. And sometimes I felt as if they were standing around me discussing me or sometimes I felt as if they shrunk and were inside me trying to fix me. Again, I sort of knew I was dreaming at this point but not quite. And I didn’t feel in control over myself much. Until I did this one thing which was I just started yelling (in my dream) ‘shut up! everyone shut up and let me sleep!’ So anyway, they said something about needing me to go deeper.
No shit. I think I experienced a real life episode of inception at this point.
So the voices said that and a little while later I somehow felt dragged into another dream. Like I literally felt I was going through a hole into another dream.
So in this dream it was just a series of random musical scenes. Again, I wasn’t controlling much of myself at all but I could still sort of tell I was just dreaming. I don’t even remember most of this whole dream other than it was just a series of Broadway musicals type of thing. What I mean is that, I and everyone around me were singing and dancing just in random places about random things. I remember this one part where I felt like I could control myself for a short time and that was when I was on a stage and started to tap dance. What was going through my head was ‘well maybe if I just tap dance and give the people what they want they will let me get to sleep’.
At the end of this dream I was sort of floating through a hallway and there were people on either side smiling and clapping for me.
Then I woke up at this point. But I was very tired so I wasn’t 100% ‘there’. I was debating what to do. I got up and started going downstairs because I wanted to write this whole experience down but I went back and just typed it on my phone. Then I went back to sleep for good.
I hope this post is coherent lol. It is probably nothing but a cool thing to write down I guess.
My ear is still popping and it’s been 2 weeks since I first got the ear infection. I didn’t know this was possible.
I’m a 25-year old male and my ears have been popping constantly for what seems like a year.
i got a steroid today
and i started getting dizzy and happy. and after i got it i stood at the counter to get more meds and started playing the name tag on the wall and i whispered ‘burgers and fries’ before even realizing what i was doing. i could hardly walk and kept tripping. sometimes doctors are wrong but i don’t want to say never go to the doctor or never trust them. just try to think critically. they are people too. i think i shall start getting flu shots though.
today i was being really dumb. somehow i spent an hour cleaning a bird feeder and putting it back together. i probably messed up 5 times on it. kept having to take it apart and fix it. then i spent another half hour trying to get liquid out of my ear. i’m brainless today.